Wednesday, November 22, 2006'♥
i'm so damn pissed because of the chalet and some other stuff.firstly, my parents still think im still their small little kid, trying to control my life and freedom.i'm alresdy 15 years old and though i do not look exactly like one, at least i still carry the mindset of a 15 year old..just because i'm staying over for my class chalet for just one night, they have to start nagging at me on what i should or shouldnt do as if i'll be out for so many days like that.WTH.i know they may be trying to concern me, but cant they at least give me some freedom as of what a 15 year old should get?!unlike other teens out there who could stay out late at night, doing whatever stuff they like,without their parents pestering them just to ask when they would be back..it gets irritating..i envy these teens..but what can i do?ZILCH..i wanna be independent and live my own life without any interference of anyone to change how my life goes..it's absurd.if this carries on, i will never ever grow up..
secondly,it's the same old problem.i dont know why but i cant seem to communicate well with people.people were happily enjoying themselves while im just at a corner wondering if i should join them, or perhaps would they actually mind if i join them...it's not that im quiet or what..it's just that once i join them, they would start talking some languages which i dont understand at all..so, i dont know what to talk about since i dont even know what they were actually talking about..but if i dont join them, i'll be all alone since i'm like much closer to them than others..or perhaps it's just the presence of him making me uncomfortable..i just cant make myself to talk to him..why am i feeling this way?he's just my friend..arrrgggghhhh.i suddenly feel like crying..i dont even know who i can actually talk to..where are all my friends???
tonight i've fallen and i can't get up; 2:59 PM