Wednesday, May 09, 2007'♥
i know that i've not been blogging for the past four months or so.so here i am finally to continue blogging.
Life has been full of many complicated stuff,especially these three weeks or so,i didnt know what got into my head.i felt a spur of the moment to try something i never tried before.it was painful,but i didnt stop just because it was pain,instead,i continued until i could no longer take it.people might say that im foolish and silly,but who really understands how i feel?this is just part of growing up i guess,but not all people will be as,you can call it stupid,to try this.it leaves ugly and unwanted scars on yourself.this was my intention,i wanted it to stay on me,using pens and markers will only fade away as time goes by,so whats the point of it when it would just be temporary?teachers talked to me,and i told them the whole story.she said that i tend to keep a lot of things to myself and this will only make me suffer.i should try to get over this and carry on the way life goes.time heals everything,thats what my teacher said.is it true?most probably.i would not want to scare him away if i continue to be persistant,though i really cant let it go.maybe i should just let nature take its course by not asking for more.i should be contented with what i have now."loving someone does not mean that you have to be with him forever,but knowing that he's happy."i've promised many people around me that im not going to do this ever again,to my friends,teachers,i'm sorry!
tonight i've fallen and i can't get up; 6:13 AM